Brayden's Poor Finger

So I've been putting this post off as long as I can but decided I'd just do it today. It makes me sad, sick, and anxious writing this post. So if you read the post before about our bad week, you know Brayden hurt his finger. After visiting the doctor on Friday, his finger didn't look much better. So we took him back into the Insta Care Sunday, after taking off his bandage and seeing this.

When we took him in, the doctor that sewed him up was not happy. He called a plastic surgeon in to take a look and he tried to drain his finger. He said the blood was pooling and that the tip wasn't getting any blood to it. Apparently when Brayden cut his finger, it cut through the two arteries that supply blood to the the top third of the finger. They didn't heal, if you can't tell. We waited and waited for 3 weeks, visiting the plastic surgeon once a week, to see if his finger would get any better. That was the longest 3 weeks of my life. I can't even tell you how many nights I prayed and cried and prayed more that his little finger would somehow heal. I know the Lord works miracles and this would be a huge one. Well, it didn't happen. Exactly 3 weeks after he cut his finger, he had surgery to remove the dead part. The whole top half was completely dead so the doctor took off about 60%, just above his second joint. He tried to leave as much finger as he could but there wasn't much to work with. It breaks my heart to write this post. My poor baby lost part of himself. I have been told by some people, well at least it was just part of it. Or that at least it was just a finger. Well, I have those thoughts all the time. Then I think, he lost part of his finger! He will never be able to use it again. It won't grow back, no matter how much my nephew Carson prays that it will. He will be able to adjust and know no different since he is so young. But every time I see his finger when we go to have it checked, it breaks my heart all over again. It is so tiny now. Smaller than his pinky. Its still super swollen so it will be even smaller when the swelling goes down. He has a wrap on it all the time and will have the wrap for probably another 3 weeks. The cut sight has to heal completely and since there wasn't much skin to work with, it will take longer than usual.

Brayden has been such a trooper through it all. The surgery was really hard because they only sedated him and numbed his finger. Well, by the time the doctor was stitching him up, the numbing stuff wore off and the sedation was wearing off. Poor baby could feel almost all the stitches and was so sad. It killed me to see him in so much pain. We gave him Lortab for the first day but after that, he has been great. He acts like his old self most the time. He is a little more sensitive these days, but who wouldn't be? We have had so many people call, stop by, give gifts, give dinners, pray and so much more. We are beyond grateful for you all. We know that the only reason why he didn't have to lose the whole finger is because of the prayers on his behalf. We are so overwhelmed with gratitude for all the sweet, loving people in our lives. Sweet Brayden is loved by so many people and we are so blessed to have that. The Lord has worked many miracles in our lives but this had to happen. For some reason. I'm not sure yet what that reason is but the Lord always has a reason. I know that this will somehow bless Brayden's life. I love my little man so much and am so grateful he is so strong. Thank you again for all your thoughts and prayers. We love you all!